If you ever heard of that expression, it is so true. Have you ever been shaken to the core? Did you ever feel like you were ever kicked in the gut? I know this is full of cliches but this afternoon all of these sayings happened to me.
I don't want to go into to detail. All I wish right now is to push a reset button. When the choice came down to if I should look, I would have said no. It was so innocent. Little did I know, I was going to read something that would turn my world upside down.
Something told me to stop but I honestly didn't think it would turn out like this. My head is all F@#$ ed up!!
I have tried to justified it. Maybe I read too much into it. Maybe it is my warped way of looking at things. Maybe it is nothing at all. My self esteem took a big hit. My security has been incredibly shaken.
I want to go back and start the whole day again, when I was happy and looking forward to spending a lovely evening. Instead I have to find me and pick myself up and figure how to forget and move on.
If only I could forget...